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i go lay down
my fatigue overcoming my body
am i sleep-deprived?
so i take in some caffeine
to cater my senses
getting set into line
i feel i've fallen a victim
of being controlled
by the world at ease
the tasks i have to complete
they're overwhelming (they're)
they're overwhelming me
when we leave
where do we go?
the thought scares me
i try to hide my face
'cause my confidence isn't in the brightest place
i hate myself
but i say
i'll make a comeback
i swear i'll come back
tie the laces to my soul
'cause i can't stay here anymore
i combat the thoughts with my lies
let me know when i'm alright
tug of war
between morality, what's right
and my mind
nothing to see here in sight
but i will try to
suppress myself to keep quiet
and not let others face
the shivering lights in my eyes rage
white
they glow
and it's gone
they glow
and it's gone
and it's gone
and i'm gone
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2. |
addicted
04:32
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addiction
is a sickness
the next time i see you using it
is the last time you'll see me losing it
'cause i'll be gone in the next minute
i'm tired of staying awake
when i should be asleep
but i keep
seething
thinking we could end at anything
listen to your lies
shouts resonating in my eyes
i told you the next day,
"you gotta give it up"
i'm way past the point where i have had enough
so can't you see when you have had enough
i'm staring at my dented ceiling
wondering if what i'm hearing
is more yelling or if you're kidding
it's like as if on the next day
you get out of bed with nothing to say
when you're asked what happened it's them to blame
i'm done with playing your little games
you won't let people just walk away
and if they try you'll scare them to stay
what kept you up last night
a prick did
yelling word vomit on the street
addicted
injecting a substance in an alleyway
now he's praying to god with nothing to say
and for his sins, it's them to blame
give in anyway
he's addicted (x3)
he's a liar
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3. |
forbidden confessions
04:04
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how do i tell them i’m all for both sides
when i don’t even know the truth
i’m sitting down here just so confused
their faces facing me
filling me with grim
the lightbulb over my head getting dim
maybe i’m overthinking
cause i don’t know what i should be thinking
would i be thought of less than
anyone else
i cannot come out
oh no
it just takes a little thought
to figure out this lie i fought through
what does it mean anyway?
it got a little too loud last night
after i confessed my analysis
i should stop putting my mouth where my mind is
the room i share gets duller with every day
side-eyed with their disgust
i can see it in their faces
maybe i’m overthinking
cause i don’t know what i should be thinking
would i be thought of less than
anyone else
i cannot come out
oh no
it just takes a little thought
to figure out this lie i fought through
what does it mean anyway?
i’m never gonna come out
i can’t come out
please,
let me win this race
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4. |
stay with me
03:06
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how am i gonna pay my bills?
how am i gonna get a job?
how am i gonna live my best life
with no money to bounce off?
stealing coke money from the other homeless people
and i've broken all my bones, i can't move forward when i'm feeble
but maybe i'm just making excuses
so i don't leave
but what is out there
out there for me
when all i ever do is
express my creativity
i'm lacking of skills and what course should i choose
a mixed bag of career paths, i wanna stay with you
i have no good future from what i can see
so why don't you come and stay with me
i'm out here on my own
trying to afford to eat
making the musicians money
just tryna keep myself on my feet
one bedroom flat with a student loan
my bed's made of cardboard and i'm living alone
i have loud neighbors who keep me up
which is kind of ironic 'cause im making all the fuss
but what is out there
out there for me
when all i ever do is
express my creativity
i'm lacking of skills and what course should i choose
a mixed bag of career paths, i wanna stay with you
i have no good future from what i can see
so why don't you come and stay with me
why do i have to follow this stupid system?
probably because there is nothing special about me.
i’m just another person
looking for some sort of success in the music scene
every download, every play counts
seeing my views slow down after the link i sent gets overthrown by everyone else's music
what makes me so different.
there are many more talented people than me.
am i gonna die (x4)
i am gonna die (x2)
when will i die
well i'm dead
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5. |
tell you
02:50
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please just let me leave today
i wanna see another day
but i can't it's far too late
i have put on masquerade
her vision's fading away
and he is going insane
yet i'm afraid that they'll turn gray
thinking that they are okay
i want to tell you that you're not
but you can't realize my train of thought
you are lost inside your mind
the only thing you realize isn't true
i want to tell you
man, i wish there was a way
of bringing you back to the good old days
when you didn't get diseased
and when you didn't have aching knees
yeah, we all want you to stay
but it ain't gonna be that way
god has made us go away
and you still think that you're okay
i want to tell you that you're not
but you can't realize my train of thought
you are lost inside your mind
the only thing you realize isn't true
i want to tell you the truth
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